stress induced diarrhea?

damn it. again?????

not on exam week.

Prayers.

say a little prayer for me, let's all say prayers, in hope that we would do well, in hope that we would all PASS sem3, in hope that we will meet every single one of our classmates in the next sem; all 123 of us, in hope that i would not let my parents down. Year 2 is not easy, never been easy, we must work hard. RMXXXXX has to be worth it, each sem.

let's say a little prayer.

i can do it? i can do it? i can do it.. give me the strength to do it, let my conscience be my guide, let me not be nervous anymore.

we can do it.

RIP mr lizard.

Someone needs to tell the lizard community not to chill at the side of the door.

SERIOUSLY..

Someone needs to tell them they might be dipenyek-kan LEY unintentionally when we opening/closing door..

HAIH..
CHAM so cham..
poor lizards...

we used to be, we were once, we are still happy

it's coming back again.

i'm hurting the one person that truly cares about me, the most. i am careless, i am stupid.

and i let the person who cares shit about me hurt me without doing anything. =(

i'm sorry..

* i can't keep my mind straight for studying. WHY? *

Sometimes I feel I want to go to a place so far away, no one would remember me, or even miss me. No one would know I existed like 19 years ago.

I want to run away.

From everything.

Give me a boat, and I'll sail the seas.
Give me a plane, and I'll fly to the ground where no man speaks.

Good Luck B-Pharmers!

For all the hard work 3 hours practical sessions
that rushes us to make 3 kinds of formulation like the above(in a limited time)
has now put to good use. ~.~
Good luck to all IMU- ians B-Pharmers for Extempo Dispensing Prac Exam tomorrow~!
Hopefully powders don't come out ! =p

Tze Min, wish you were here. Then we can deal with this Pharmacy crap together.

I blame UCSI and IMU for the distance.

Misshh you.

I'm you-less today.

Hello Perverted Best Friend!

Now, that's me bestie. HAPPY BIRTHDAY fattieeee!!
Love you love you love you till the maxxx...

Seems so far away, miss you most of the time.
Miss your laughter.
Miss your manjaness with me. MUAHAHA.
Don't you start denying.
Miss being roomates with you...

You're 20 this year.
A big 2 in front but don't worry.
With your face, no one would know you're 20!!
Hahaha.
Smile always~~~

*HUGS* *KISSSSSS*

Ever wondered how emotional my blog can get? Don't worry, I'm always fine.

Just like to write emo-ly. HAHA.

So, 5 more weeks till the end of the semester! Can't wait? I can wait. Haha. Don't come sooner.
Haven't touch or start reading most subjects. So dead.

I hope I can pass this sem. Year 2 Year 2. Come on come on. Let my friends pass too! ^.^

*prays*

Irreplaceable

Have you ever wished to turn back time and have that 10 minutes of your life back?

That 10 minutes that made who you are today.

That 10 minutes made you stronger in every way, emotionally and physically.

That 10 minutes proved you wrong that
you are indeed not invincible from tears.

That 10 minutes has your greatest regret in it.

Give me back those 10 minutes of my life
and
I still would not know how to handle it.

That 10 minutes..

Is irreplaceable.

What a Horrible Experience

Im just 19 years old this year. Yet again and again I've told myself. God gave me this situation so that it would teach me a lesson and to be tougher in years to come. It was suppose to be the day I was going back to my hometown. I miss home so much. I miss my brother. =(

Was suppose to drive back with Pey Ling, LiLin, Wan Ching and Pei Yee. Little did I know that the little accident I had at the IMU hilltop was so severe that it damaged and crushed my black oil tank. It literally kemek lo. >.<>

I just wanted to fetch Pey Ling home since it was raining so heavily from uni. It was just like a thought; a good deed la. Mana tau, I ter-bang the curb as it was flouded and I couldn't see the curb.

BANG!

There goes Jinny. I feel so heartbroken today.
Seeing Jinny in that condition.
It's like seeing her urinate everywhere, and everywhere possible.

She was raised up in the air too, at the workshop. She must be scared. In a foreign place, so dark and undergoing an operation tonight.

AWHH. I hate myself. =( I hurt her and she's in pain now. Translate this in mandarin.
"Become good person also wrong"
There goes my RM800~
There goes... my holidays for this semester~
Gotta work for cash.
Zzzzzzzzzzz
Sad.


You tell me, will you sam thong if you see your car like that? RAWR. But after today, I shall forget. It would be a bitter experience for me.


Well, HEY, I know where the black oil tank is now. I know how much it is to repair(=( , well I know he zat me the price already) I know where to look for when I bang something. It may look fine but better, next time LOOK BELOW. It was a good thing I didn't drive back to Malacca in that Jinny's condition. If not, everyone would have died in the car accident.

KABOOM!

Van. Seng MOK ti.
Not small girl anymore.

Oh yea, worst thing is, bf wasn't around. Had to handle all by myself. Just imagine. Two young girls. Stranded at Sri Petaling. Dunno how to repair the car. Dunno what to do. Hours and Hours standing there. Calling here and there.

HAIH..

Okay. End of story.
I shall be a new me tomorrow.
Be optimistic. OKAY.

Treasure

Me & You.

when i look upon u, i see the love.

the love coming from a heart;so pure as white cream.

a cup of white cream is what i need for my day.

a day without you is a day without air.

Be my air, be my treasure.

A Trip 2 B Excited For.

So everything is finalise. Gonna go Singapore on the Raya break to find Mei Mae! =)

Gonna go with Pey Ling. Wheee~ So excited! YAY YAY! Gonna stay long long . Muahahaa

Here we come Mei Mae! Don't say I didn't keep my promise this time =p =p

Eighteen Eight Two Zero Zero Nine Is Just Not My Day

I sprained my elbow today. I can't straighten my elbow now; you don't even know.

I booked the wrong flight today. Hopefully can change without charges. =(

We barely talked today. 10 sentences perhaps.

Ignorance.

Hurt.

Class was from 8am to 530pm today.

Tired.

1230am and I can't sleep.

Miss you badly, but can't tell you. Want to sms you but still in cold war.

Tears.

Hurt.

Farewell Buddy ..

Seriously, I feel kinda bored. When I get home, it's another thing all together. With so down to earth, definately stress free. LOL

And yeah, a heck of a perfecto boyfriend just claims number one on the list.
So what's missing?
Too much work I guess. I really don't like going to uni with such long long classes. Membosankan only.

Haha, I really have nothing to update. Actually, I think there's a lot. But I'm far too way behind all those events that happen? Hee~

OMG. Just remembered.

Went out with Yuin Yi and a couple of classmates from secondary schools.
Was really nice seeing them all =) Yuin Yi's leaving and that saddens me.

We've known each other since we were Standard 2. And after Form 5, we began to drift apart. And yes, there were occasionally chats in MSN but it's just not the same anymore. I remember we were standard 6 and it was the holidays, we were writing letters to each other by post. BY POST! Haha. It was just me you and Fara Ain back in Standard 6. =))

and so there was the sleepover at my place last year where we were shopping our heads away.
and the time it was just me and you out watching HSM3. REMEMBER???

Even our dads are high school friends. And they're friends till now.

=( Can don't go US aa?
I'll miss you. and Do TAKE care =) *lots of love and hugs*

p/s: need to get pics from siang. >.<

Hehe

I found this on my desk when I opened my door. After a long day from class, this definately brights up my day.

He must have sneeked in when my housemates was in class. Now, the spare keys do come in handy =p Love u always, darling =)

sometimes you just have to realise

that whatever i do, or say will always be wrong.

just for the simpliest reason.

and i need not to be reminded.

= (

too many flaws, i shud just die.

Hee~

Yes Yes!
Mr Anonymous from Time.dot.net says that I can get my internet on monday.
Wuuuu! *jumps in joy*

loves me bangss =p
hehe

Rachie coming stay over today.
Bon ODORI here we come! =)

and yes, Gold Class for Harry Potter today?
Muahahahaha can't wait can't wait.

Oh, did I forget to mention that I so heart my housemates?
They's so nice! and funny.
muahahaha
PeyLing, Jenny and Stella =))

My First Week

To go or not to go class at 4pm.
It's 1pm. And I have nothing to do for the next 3 hours.

Go library? Too nerdy.

Go student lounge? Too many people there.

Go comp lab? Well that's where I am .
HAHA.

@.@
I'm bored.

I NEED THE INTERNET!

Recently moved into a new apartment, and SADLY there's no internet. @.@

No shows to watch.
Just normal TV to see.

Heart of Greed is on 8TV now. WOOOO!!

and i look kiddy with my new hairdo.
my bangs.

Ms C the Singaporean

It's been so so so long since I last saw Christine Yap Siew Cyn. Rawr. That fattie gurrrll larh, kat Singapore, where will peduli us all Malaysians already horr? That girl Singaporean already. HMPHoh yea, she's not fat. im just calling her fattie for fun. =p

Muahahahah. Kidding.
Actually Im serious about the Singaporean part.

It was reli nice meeting up with her. Somehow, she turned more blur and funny. What a combo?

We went to station 1 cafe in Batu Berendam. The food there was awesome la, but reli in big portion. Her jokes are really funny, one time, it made me laugh till I cried and one of my contact lens drop out. Addition to the fact that, Tze Min mengepitkan my hand till it was so painful I couldn't scream. She tot I was posing. =.='''''''''''''''''''''''''''''

It was painful. My poor leftie hand.
Okay so, we had to tell her a number of times, what we were doing, as in studying what where and why?

=.=' followed by O.O

And yes Christine, me and Tze Min are doing Pharmacy and Rach is gonna go The One Academy to do Graphic Design!!!

JOKE of the DAY.
Let me illustrate. It may not be as funny when you read it but at that moment, it was reli funny. At least for me and Rach. Loh Tze Min, I hope you read this. You missed the best part!

Vannie, Rachie and Christine went to Jonker Walk. So, at some times, Christine walked really fast or really slow that we couldn't keep up to her pace.

And so, we lost her for the first time. She messaged me but I didn't feel my phone in my bag. "Van, where are you? Are you b4 or after the stage?"

That was her message. REMEMBER. Vannie didn't see her message.
And, stage, she meant the Jonker Walk stage where old people goes their to sing? Hahahah.

Okay so, later, found her la. Then she didn't mention about the message. So, we all went back to the car after everything. I drove.

We stopped by at the Maybank in Munshi. Waited for Christine to go withdraw her money from the bank.

Then, Vannie took out my cellphone. Read her message.
"Van, where are you? Are you b4 or after the stage?"

Then, Vannie got notti. Vannie replied. "I'm on the stage. HAHA"

Muahahahahha.

Now the funny part. My car was like in front of her laa. She x nampak me u noe? Then I got a message.
"Okay"

Then me and Rachie was like so pelik looking at her looking around, we thought she tengah cari orang. Manatau, she was looking for us, she thought I was really was on the stage.

Then, she can miss call me somemore. Hahahaha. Then, gotta honk her only she know we were right in front of her. =p

She so blur in a cute way lo.

I couldn't stop laughing on the way back.

Extension of MJ's story

Adrian enlightened me to a few facts.

1. He bleached his skin cuz he had a skin disorder. He wanted to even up his skin. =(
2. He went plastic surgeries due to the critism he got from the public. But I still think he very leng zhai lo before he did all the surgeries.

Although he act weirdly towards the past few years, his songs that he created and cheoreography were and still will be so remarkable.

I guess it's thru that people only appreciate him when he's gone.

A tribute to Micheal Jackson and Farrah Fawcett

26th June 2009 marked the departure of 2 remarkable icons in the century.

Micheal Joseph Jackson, more famously known as the King of Pop left us all when he was diagnosed with heart failure due to a overdose of prescription drugs yesterday. Little did he know that the extra pill he took for an 'extra' energy would have taken his life all together.

Him, being an iconic pop idol, left the world shaken with his departure. What a pity, at the age of 50 years old, everything was gone for him in a blink of an eye. He was supposedly scheduled to have another World Tour in the US- a comeback for him. Yes sadly for him, 13th July was too long away for him and he had to leave us all exactly 17 days before the tour.

Did anyone know that he was a Muslim? He married 2 twice with 2 wives, and had 3 children. Did I get that right? And none of his little kids look anything like him.

His songs and ultimately his dance moves will always be idolized. He reli shudn't have gone to the uncountable plastic surgeries. He was good looking to be begin with without the surgeries. And yes, to MJ, you have lived a legend and died a legend. So,who shall be the next King of Pop or the King of Rock to replace Elvis Presley?

Did anyone forgot about Farrah Fawcett's death?

Farrah Fawcett born as Ferrah Leni Fawcett was also a pop culture figure whose hairstyle was emulated by millions of young women and whose poster sales broke records, making her an international sex symbol in the 1970s and 1980s.

Now, why did MJ get more publicity than Ms Fawcett? Yeah, the fact that MJ is an Pop King but how could the whole world forget about her? She was a famous actor, more famously known to play one of te Charlie's Angels back in the 80's. She battled cancer for about 3 years till she took her last breath yesterday. If I'm not mistaken, she only had one son and wasn't married to anyone the time when she died. Married once and is known to be intimate with another American actor, Ryan O'Neal.

A tribute to them and may they rest in peace.

Marriage is a fool for people who are in love.

Vannie's copyright.=p

No one.

When things get out of hand, who do you turn to?
When friends start asking what's wrong, you hesitate to tell them what's bothering you.
You tell them, "I'll be fine"
but deep in your heart, you're definately not.

They tell you it's gonna be okay. But it's not gonna be.
But
somehow or rather, you just needed someone to stay with you, hear what you need to say when you feel like to, and let you cry on their shoulders and see the ugly,emotional side of you.

and that's the time you feel
that you have no one.

I'm getting emotional, someone stop me.

I can't live with a person who plans all his life so perfectly. I reli can't.
I can't be with someone who has a second brain that functions to his emotions.
I want to stay spontaneous and to be able to act on my emotions and my feelings.

I can't be so serious at all times. It's just not me.

I can't be the person you need me to be. I don't think things thoroughly.
I just go with my emotions.
I love you, I stay. simple.

Vannie's Back

There you go! A new layout out from Shabby Blogs. Vintage yet sweet layouts.

Gotta work on my header. LOL!

And ah yes, a sweet Monday morning. Feeling gloomy today, don't know why. Fact that Mei Mae bailed out on me today, HMPH. Thank you very much, she didn't turn up for work today.

*heart breaks*

Can't wait to begin my third semester, my Year 2.! Seriously, I'm too bored. Yes, I'm aware of the stress level that the next semester might pour on me. So powerful that I might lose a few kgs during the last few weeks of the semester. Looking forward to it. Muahahhaa

Did I tell you guys that I felt God's grace yesterday? It's indescribable. I feel lighted and lifted up!

Simon's coming back! Christine's coming back! Haha, hope we would have time to hang out before I'm back in Kay-Elle.

Eeee, almost forgot. Happy Father's Day, Daddy =))

Im so excited with the fact that Rachie is coming up KL to study, and she's gonna stay so near me. SO HAPPY! More girl time. YEAH!

p/s: remind me to update more often.
-vannie-

update!

and so, it's the start of the month. JUNE. An empty June perhaps. Got myself a job, a part time one at Fenix Inn as some gal in charge of their cyber cafe. Neat rite?? =p I even can online while doing my job. Best part is, I get to be collegues with Mei Mae. Hehehe...

Office working hours and they pay well and here's the funny thing. I'll only be working till the end of the month which means I won't be working for even a month. Hehe. So niceeeeeeee!

My cousin Ivan who was living in my house in malacca while he was studying in Manipal is getting marrieedd!! wooo hooo.. It's reli fast for a fresh grad like him thou. It must have been love love love all around the air. Hahaha..

Wedding's in a month. Cepat kan?? Make me feel like I wanna get married too. LOL Im kiddin...

Sem 2 has ended and in about less than a month, Year 2 is starting. HEHE. Left 3 more years to go. >.< Hope I can handle it. Most of my friends back home say I lost a lot of weight. Wanna know why?

I'll give u the remedy.

STRESS. Study till die. muahahahhaa. it reli helps? I guess. lol lol

not again. not the eye again. this time it's the left one. =((

having something growing at my eye again. ahh! and i have 4 major papers this week.

shud i go see a doc now? it's hurting real bad. it's swollen. ah! the pain =((
but if i go, doc will give me some cream that will make my vision go blurrryy = can't study. =(

-sometimes i feel that i'm too nice, helping people here and there, i forgot about my own convenience. I forgot about my convenience on things, i suit people more than myself. Sometimes it's just nice to know if people could just STOP thinking about their convenience for a moment and start thinking about other people's convenience. -

I've done in almost 19 years of my life. Why can't you?

just finished 1/6 of an uncompleted task of completing year 1.

5 more papers to go.

Can i make it?

Sure do hope so. =(

and after the 21st of may, I'll be flying around. Flying back to happie land.
Sad land over here is not looking good for the past 2 weeks of study week.

Superman Met His Kriptonite On Mother's Day

It's Mother's Day today. A day to be celebrated. A day to cherish MORE of your mother. It's also the day, I was having my worst day.

The worst thing to do on Mother's Day was being 10 thousand miles away from my beloved mother. The second worst thing is that your boyfriend got admitted to the hospital because of concussion. The third next thing is to not know what had happened to your boyfriend.

Okay, so it's about 4 more days to my finals.Studying quietly at home, happily messaging him. Was happy that he said he was on the way back.

Not expecting him to say that he met an accident just outside his house. I would have pictured a normal minor accident but I was wrong. Not only did he got shocked til his hands and legs turn purple, he was rushed to the hospital. To make things worst, we didn't get to chat long enough for him to tell me what was going on.

The only message I got from him was. "Call my mum for details.Im going to the hospital"

Then no reply. No answer.


I sat by the bed, started crying because I thought I was gonna lose him for good. Sitting by the bed, I cried to myself saying, "I thought I told you to take care" and sobbing away..
Easy rite? Just call his mum laa.. Not for me, I had to build up million and billion and trillion amounts of courage to call her saying, Hello aunty, it's (my name)..

Hello aunty, it's (my name) - i called the second time after 15 minutes. She must have thought I was very annoying. Or maybe not. I rushed to Sunway MC immediately. Nearly got into an accident myself just outside the hospital. ALMOST bang the divider cuz was speeding and not looking at the road.

Seeing him lying on the bed was really heartbreaking. When the curtains were pulled away, I was standing at least 100cm away from him. Being so close and yet so far. Again, really heartbreaking. His smile made my trip all worth while. He was discharged a little while later with a little wheelchair that I had to push.

Now, being very stupid of me. I paid the parking ticket with the last 3 bucks I had in my wallet. Was rushing out from my home, didn't manage to take enough money with me.
I drove behind his sister's car and suddenly realise I have ZERO cash to pay for the sunway toll.

Damn sheat.

Made a U-turn. Went to Monash, wanted to look for ATM. Stupid guard x let me in. Then finally went back to Sunway MC. Withdrawed cash.

"Teet.I'm sorry, we don't accept rm50 cash"
what the hell, the stupid parking ticket machine don't accept 50 bucks cash.

Had to go around asking people if they had change. VERY cham. =((( Nearly wanted to cry and decided to approach the pharmacy for help. There was this pharmacist there, really nice, with a heart of gold. Gave me money instead. I asked for change for 50 and she gave me money to pay for my parking. She didn't want to tell her name.

I'm so gonna go find her tomorrow to return her the money.

And then, there I go. Back to his house. And back to my house after much later. Never did drive alone so late ALONE back to my apartment before alone. ALONE back from puchong.

Salute my day not? lol.
*giving myself a hard laugh*

Well, at least he's okay. That's what matters most.

Mummy, I love you! Happy Mother's Day! =))